A lot has changed about ourselves since we first joined AA
The misery that we used to know has finally gone away
And in its place, we live a life, protected from its maul
Released from what we had become, a slave to alcohol
But just because we drink no more does not negate the fact
That we still harbor defects that are waiting to attack
We nurtured them for many years, not caring what we’d done
Now in AA we face them down, not let them overrun
A fellow shared the other day about one he still fought
It was the one called envy and it made him feel distraught
It did not come on often, but whenever it arose
He’d have to use the tools he’d learned to help it to dispose
He told of how it had occurred while visiting his brother
His sibling had just sold his house and mover into another
The new one could, by all accounts, be labeled as a mansion
The decorations in the house conveyed the height of fashion
And as our fellow looked around this defect reared its head
He envied what his brother had, said “why not me instead”
He was the older of the two and started to feel shame
He should have had this type of house, he had himself to blame
But then he knew that he was wrong, this alcoholic thinking
He could not let it carry on; this path could lead to drinking
It’s then a thought had reappeared, one he had just neglected
Remember to be grateful, keep sobriety protected
His brother had had great success in building up his business
He’d worked real hard and now he’d could enjoy his many riches
But there are more important things that money can’t replace
Like children and their children and the feel of their embrace
The brother had two full grown kids, a daughter and a son
The girl had not conversed with him for years, they’d come undone
The young man lived a coast away, the rarely ever met
A life devoid of family, a thing he surely must regret
Unable to experience the joy that grandkids bring
The way they make you loosen up, partake in silly things
To watch them grow from tiny tots to kids and young adults
And know that you’re a part of it, take pride in the results
That’s how it took our fellow to begin to be relieved
Remember to be grateful for the blessings he’d received
A showcase house, expensive cars are enviable things
But they do not replace the joy that love of family brings
His children now respect him, they rejoice in how he’s changed
They want their kids to know him, never more to feel estranged
With gratitude for what you have instead of what you’re missing
Envy loses its appeal, its power is dismissing
His share had struck a chord with me, I too often do forget
That gratitude for what I have relieves me from regret
It was a sort of wake-up call, I cannot take for granted
Those things that add the most to life, as gratitude commanded
Larry R.
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