A JOURNEY WITH JOHN
By Larry R.
My name is not important, most folks just call me Pete
I live at home with Mom and Dad, my life’s been pretty sweet
They buy me real cool stuff to wear, a tablet and a phone
But now and then, that’s not enough, I start to feel alone
At school I see a group of guys, they seem to have it made
They’re into sports, they get the girls and never look afraid
I try my best to be like them, they seem so self-assured
But something always holds me back, I’m really insecure
I overheard them talk about a party that was planned
There would be music, girls and booze, it really sounded grand
I do not dance, don’t have a girl and never had a drink
So, if I’m ever to ft in, it’s time I swim or sink
The party started on the beach, a clear and starry night
I told myself the time is now, I’ve got to act just right
Still, I had doubts, they’ll check me out and send me on my way
Alone again, no comfort here, my sadness on display
When I was just about to leave, I met a guy named John
He said he saw that I was down and told me to hang on
I have the thing to cure your blues and make you feel alright
Here, have a drink and loosen up, this will remove your fright
So, drink I did, and like John said, I started to feel loose
More confident and self-assured, I liked what drink produced
That feeling that I so long sought was now within my grasp
I’m one of them, I told myself, I’ve made it in at last
The next day my head hurt awfully bad, but I said “that’s OK”
To get me thru last night like that, a meager price to pay
My new friend John was there for me, a friend I cannot lose
I knew he’d be right by my side each time I got the blues
So, John and I became great buds, where I went John went too
To parties, dances, football games, he stuck to me like glue
As long as he was near to me, I felt safe and secure
But other friends would caution me, beware of his allure
When I told John what these folks said, all he could do was laugh
Beware of what, I am your friend, let’s have another draft
I’m sure he’s right, I told myself, we’re just out for some fun
Should trouble start we’d just part ways, but right now, I’m not done
Some years went by, we stayed in touch, then things began to change
We still had fun, but there were times I acted very strange
Another friends said slow it down, you’re drinking way too fast
I yelled at him, pushed him aside, told him to kiss my ass
As more tome passed, the fun decreases, more trouble was the norm
Buy John would say “it’s no big deal, it’s just a passing storm”
Your other friends can’t understand, if they knew me, they would
So just ignore them, we’re OK, we’re so misunderstood
Still, things got worse, I wrecked my car, and ended up in jail
My old friend John had let me down, my life had come derailed
When I get out, I’ll look him up and say we need to talk
This has to stop, we can’t go on, it’s time he took a walk
When we met he asked why I’m mad at him and so irate
Remember I’m the one that helped you back on that first date
You needed me to finally gain the confidence you lacked
So, don’t blame me for all your woes, it’s you that came off track
I said that’s it, we’re friends no more, can’t stand what I’ve become
What started out as fun back then has left me feeling numb
Then John said, “you’re not serious, I’ve heard this song before”
And when I go it won’t be long before you’re at my door
There’s no way I’ll come back to you, I’ve finally had enough
These last few years you took control, you really made life rough
So, adios, go take a hike, we’ve nothing more to say
You’ve screwed me up, because of you, a heavy price I’ve paid
But, in a week, I call him back, exactly like he said
I hate myself for my weak will, he lives inside my head
I can’t see any good way out, his pull I can’t defend
I may as well throw up my hands, rush headlong to the end
When John had heard me say those things, a smile came to his face
You’re just where I want you to be, alone and in disgrace
And you are right, the time is near, our partnership complete
So, drink your fill, it won’t be long, your terminal defeat
Before I go, I need to ask, was that always your plan
To build me up then tear me down, you wicked, wicked man
Of course it was, it’s been my game since the human race was born
You’ve only known my name was John, my surname’s Barleycorn
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